no regrets. i might gaining some weight ,not some, but a lot ... so i just had to deal with it . everybody does . you gain some , you lose some .. but i just love to eat . anything . except for cakes. yeah weird . but if you bring me cakes , i will only eat the icing , the chocolate sprinklers on it , the cream . so if it's my birthday , we just go get ice cream or pizza or McD . I love it . p/s : EATING AFTER 10PM IS A BAD THING OR NOT ? I JUST WANT TO KNOW IF IT WILL SCREW MY SYSTEM IN THE BODY . . I'M JUST 18 AND LOVE LOVE LOVE TO EAT .
If u don't even care , why u still reading this crap?
Tuesday, 27 May 2014
it's almost 4am
you know what guys, it's almost 4am and i just had nasi putih with ayam goreng kunyit and kari ikan . YUM.
Tuesday, 20 May 2014
LATELY
lately i became more emotional . everynight i cry for nothing . just nothing . maybe my hormones are very unstable for the time being . well i guess it will be tough for a few days from now on . since i have to think and plan about my future . and it might get ugly again if the plan does not work .
Well u know what , It sucks to be me .
well hari ni mood tak baik , starting dri ptg tadi lpas check dpat result poli kat mana .
hmm dpat poli dkat Perlis . well ,it's not what i want and for me it's too far . kalau boleh sesangat nak dkat Jitra . dkat dgan kakak. but well Allah nak letak aku dkat Perlis nak buat camna .. so lpas dah dpat yg aku punya , aku pun gagah la nak check yg wani punya and it looks like dia pun dpat sama dgn aku . well mmg aku dah berharap and berdoa nak blajar skali dgn dia ..doa aku dah termakbul la . alhamdulillah . tahniah wani ... tapi lpas aku bagitau kat mama and ezza dorang punya reaction biasa la .. jauh la , susah la ,and bnda2 macam ni la yg aku paling tak suka dngr . SEE, IT FUCKING SUCKS TO BE ME !!!!
but nak bt camna dah dpat kat situ . and dgr pulak cita tahun ni dorang guna silibus baru apa semua and benda macam ni la yg susah nak transfer aku dkat poli lain. aku nak tukar . ! please ! kadang2 rasa dah hilang minat blajar . pressure dari family , keadaan aku, financially , hmmm and others . tapi tak boleh nak salahkan takdir . tapi rasa teruk sngt . dari dulu lagi . dari starting skolah menengah lagi .. everything yg aku plan apa semuanya starting to fail.dulu setiap kali aku push diri aku nak something , mesti aku dapat bnda tu .tapi start dari form 2 semua bnda yg planned or bnda yg aku janji kat org yg aku akan dapat , habis hancur . resultnya hancur semua . tapi pada mula aku rasa ok takpa maybe it's not my time . tapi bila slalu sngat dah jadi aku fed up . ye la mau tak geram , apa yg kita nak org lain yg dpat . nak jugak jadi mcam org lain .nak jugak ada apa yg org lain ada . then, bila bnda ni dah terlalu sngat jadi dlam hidup aku , aku semakin envy dngan org lain .tapi aku tak tunjuk . tau je la dlam hati ni ... asyik simpan je . tak nak bagitau org .nnti bila bagitau org , biasala manusia mulut cakap je otak ada tak nak fikir . keja nak judge org . diri sendiri senget , tak betul , imperfect tak nak pulak ngaku . dah perangai . sejak azali lagi . tu la bnda2 mcam ni kna keep it to yourself , even nak bagitau bff sndiri pun tak berani . hmm , family lagi la . susah . pastu skrg ni apa yg aku nak blajar mmg dpat dah .tapi tmpat tu ... nak tukar susah skrg ni . even kalau ada connection org dlam pun susah . setiap poli skrg sistem dah tukar and tak seragam dah . tengok org lain dah nak blajar kat tempat masing2 ada yg dapat U , Matriks , Poli macam aku . dorang happy je . Bff aku pun excited nak pegi dah . tapi aku ni je sorang stuck . seriously , i'm really sorry if i could not make up my promise to study at the same place with u . i just cannot deal with the problem that's going on right now . p/s : aku kena buat solat istikharoh maybe after that aku akan tau apa yg terbaik utk aku . sbb mmg berat hati nak smbung skrg or dlam tahun ni . Please don't pressure me . I need time to think what's best for me ....
hope everything will be better ,
yours trully , Iman .
hmm dpat poli dkat Perlis . well ,it's not what i want and for me it's too far . kalau boleh sesangat nak dkat Jitra . dkat dgan kakak. but well Allah nak letak aku dkat Perlis nak buat camna .. so lpas dah dpat yg aku punya , aku pun gagah la nak check yg wani punya and it looks like dia pun dpat sama dgn aku . well mmg aku dah berharap and berdoa nak blajar skali dgn dia ..doa aku dah termakbul la . alhamdulillah . tahniah wani ... tapi lpas aku bagitau kat mama and ezza dorang punya reaction biasa la .. jauh la , susah la ,and bnda2 macam ni la yg aku paling tak suka dngr . SEE, IT FUCKING SUCKS TO BE ME !!!!
but nak bt camna dah dpat kat situ . and dgr pulak cita tahun ni dorang guna silibus baru apa semua and benda macam ni la yg susah nak transfer aku dkat poli lain. aku nak tukar . ! please ! kadang2 rasa dah hilang minat blajar . pressure dari family , keadaan aku, financially , hmmm and others . tapi tak boleh nak salahkan takdir . tapi rasa teruk sngt . dari dulu lagi . dari starting skolah menengah lagi .. everything yg aku plan apa semuanya starting to fail.dulu setiap kali aku push diri aku nak something , mesti aku dapat bnda tu .tapi start dari form 2 semua bnda yg planned or bnda yg aku janji kat org yg aku akan dapat , habis hancur . resultnya hancur semua . tapi pada mula aku rasa ok takpa maybe it's not my time . tapi bila slalu sngat dah jadi aku fed up . ye la mau tak geram , apa yg kita nak org lain yg dpat . nak jugak jadi mcam org lain .nak jugak ada apa yg org lain ada . then, bila bnda ni dah terlalu sngat jadi dlam hidup aku , aku semakin envy dngan org lain .tapi aku tak tunjuk . tau je la dlam hati ni ... asyik simpan je . tak nak bagitau org .nnti bila bagitau org , biasala manusia mulut cakap je otak ada tak nak fikir . keja nak judge org . diri sendiri senget , tak betul , imperfect tak nak pulak ngaku . dah perangai . sejak azali lagi . tu la bnda2 mcam ni kna keep it to yourself , even nak bagitau bff sndiri pun tak berani . hmm , family lagi la . susah . pastu skrg ni apa yg aku nak blajar mmg dpat dah .tapi tmpat tu ... nak tukar susah skrg ni . even kalau ada connection org dlam pun susah . setiap poli skrg sistem dah tukar and tak seragam dah . tengok org lain dah nak blajar kat tempat masing2 ada yg dapat U , Matriks , Poli macam aku . dorang happy je . Bff aku pun excited nak pegi dah . tapi aku ni je sorang stuck . seriously , i'm really sorry if i could not make up my promise to study at the same place with u . i just cannot deal with the problem that's going on right now . p/s : aku kena buat solat istikharoh maybe after that aku akan tau apa yg terbaik utk aku . sbb mmg berat hati nak smbung skrg or dlam tahun ni . Please don't pressure me . I need time to think what's best for me ....
hope everything will be better ,
yours trully , Iman .
Friday, 16 May 2014
GALAXY . HYUNG . KRIS .
well hello people. for the past 48 hours i think so ... the kpop world has been shocked by the news of "
EXO-M’s Kris wants out, files suit against SM"
this has made millions of exotics,exostans and kris fans broke down into tears . yeah , including me .
gosh.
this is out of the blue . everything happened so fast and they just did their comeback stage.. they just did it .!!
gosh. from what i know kris didn't get fairly treatment from SMent .
that's what i heard .
yahhh . before kris , i heard many bullshit things that SM did to their trainee's but we just can't accused SMent because we don't have concrete proof of their doing's to the trainee .
EXO-M Kris Sues SM Entertainment? Their History Of Boy Band "Slave Contract" Lawsuits
more of the head news ....
EXO-M Kris’s lawsuit against SM Entertainment confirmed
this really hurts us knowing that Kris may be leaving Exo ....
and it sucks .... they are so much rumors/truth that were spread around twitter . and i don't even know which to believe . but i know that i will support Kris no matter how . i know every fans will support him ...
and knowing that he had some health problems making us more sad and devastated about his condition .
we don't even know how much he hurt before. i'm not his biggest fan but he's one of Exo and Exo would not complete without him . Our precious OT12 . how i wish this is a nightmare that would just go away and never happened.
how i wish Tao could turn back time and Lay would heal his heart and mind from the sickness and problems he had . and every member should use their powers to make Exo as one . like the saying "WE ARE ONE !WE ARE EXO !
not like this . alone .
yah . i will update later on .
but all the best to Kris . I hope that everything will be better for ur future .
and if someone said that ur selfish or irresponsible .
if i was in your shoes , i would do the same.
AND EXOSTANS !!
YOU MUST KNOW THAT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO PUT YOURSELF IN THE FIRST PLACE AND DO THE RIGHT THING , JUST LIKE KRIS ,HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S DOING .. WE SHOULD NOT BE POSTING ON HIS INSTAGRAM TELLING HIM THAT HE SHOULD NOT LEAVE EXO AND HE SHOULD THINK ABOUT THE FANS. I THINK THAT HE HAD PUT A LOT OF THOUGHT ABOUT THIS AND THAT'S WHY HE DID IT . WE DID NOT WANT THIS TO HAPPEN BUT IT ALREADY DID .
WE PRAY FOR THE BEST WU YIFAN !
GALAXY HYUNG FIGHTING !
KRIS WE LOVE YOU !
hope this can make you feel better . <3
change the song too . hope u like it .
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