DESPERATELY NEED INSPIRATION !

I DESPERATELY NEED AN IDEA TO WRITE ...HOPE THAT TOMORROW THAT IDEA WILL COME STOP BY IN MY MIND .

LOVE ?

ASSALAMUALAIKUM FELLOW HUMANS . 

AS THE TITLE SAYS " I DO BUT I DON'T".

THERE ARE CERTAIN THINGS THAT I WONDERED LATELY .

THE WORD I LOVE YOU IS REALLY COMMON IN OUR LIFE . AS WE GROW OLDER EACH DAY WE WONDERED WHAT IS OUR FUTURE GOING TO BE . AM I GOING TO BE A SUCCESSFUL? OR AM I GOING TO MARRIED A MILLIONAIRE ? AM I GONNA DIE YOUNG ?OR AM I GOING TO LIVE LIKE I PLANNED IN MY MIND .

BUT WE WILL NEVER KNOW .

ONLY ALLAH KNOWS .

EVERYNIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP I'VE ALWAYS WONDERED WHO AM I GOING TO END UP WITH .?

THE QUESTION BEGAN TO LINGER IN MY HEAD . WAHH . 

BUT I ALWAYS WONDERED WHO IS MY FIRST LOVE GOING TO BE ? HUH .

I AM A NORMAL 17 YEARS OLD GIRL BUT I NEVER EVER HAD A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP WITH ANYONE EXCEPT FOOD. HAHAHA . 

I NEVER HAD THE FIRST EXPERIENCE TO SAY I LOVE YOU TO A BOY . NOT EVEN IN MY CHILDHOOD . YA . PEOPLE ALWAYS SAID THAT YOU WILL AT LEAST HAD EXPERIENCE IN PUPPY LOVE . BUT I NEVER EVER EXPERIENCE IT . IDK MAYBE I GOT SCARED OR I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONFRONT WITH THE PERSON I LIKE . AS I GROW OLDER I WATCHED MY FRIENDS WHO HAD COUPLE WITH A BOY . AND THEY TOLD ME THEIR LOVEY DOVEY STORIES TO ME .. AND SOMETIMES I ENVY THEM .

I ALWAYS WANTED A SPECIAL SOMEONE . . .

.....

MAYBE LATER IN LIFE I WILL FIND MY SOULMATE . 

ONLY ALLAH KNOWS .

HAISH .

RIGHT NOW I'M LISTENING TO EXO SONG . 

MIRACLE OF DECEMBER .

POSTING ABOUT THIS WHILE LISTENING TO THE SONG REALLY MAKE ME WANTS TO CRY .

URGHHH . 

I HOPE THERE ARE MIRACLE GOING HAPPEN IN THIS DECEMBER . 

JUST LIKE THE SONG ..

TEARS FLOWING NOW . 

MY TOP 2

ASSALAMUALAIKUM .
SO FOR TODAY , I DID CLEAN MY HOUSE AND DID SOME CHORES .
SKYPE WITH MY BESTIE .
OH I MISSED HER !
AND DID SOME CRAZY CHANGE FOR MY BLOG .
NOT SO CRAZY THOUGH .
GOOGLE MY BIAS IMAGES .!

I THINK THIS IS MY TOP 2 BIAS .

OH SEHUN 

                                                                     


                                                           

KIM WOO BIN/CHOI YOUNG DO/KIM HYUN JOONG 

                                                       

OH GOD ,
I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH BOTH OF THEM .!
NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE TOO SEE THEM ON THE TV OR YOUTUBE OR ON STAGE .
THEY ARE SO HOT .!
BOTH OF THEM.
MY REACTION WHEN I SEE THEM .!
WAS REALLY CRAZY .
I SCREAMED .
I JUMPED .
I CRIED 
I SMILE 
I BLUSH 
AND OTHER THINGS 
BUT THE MOST WORST REACTION WAS THIS 

FOR REAL OKAY ?
I WILL BE THIS TYPE OF GIRL WHEN I'M IN A FANGIRL MODE .
IT'S NORMAL.
FOR SOME PEOPLE .


THE FIRST THING THAT MY FRIENDS ASK ME "WHO DO I LIKE IN EXO ? AND WHY ?"
I IMMEDIATELY SAID THE YOUNGEST ONE , WHICH IS SEHUN  BECAUSE HE IS SO CUTE AND HOT AT THE SAME TIME . AND HE IS THE SAME AGE AS MY OLDER SISTER.
SO THE AGE GAP WAS NOT REALLY FAR .
SO HE IS SUITABLE I THINK . HEHEHE
AND HE IS SOMEONE THAT REALLY CATCHES MY HEART .HUMM... 
BUT WHATEVER . I STILL LOVE HIM . I ADORE HIM DAY BY DAY . 
HE IS A SENSITIVE GUY. BUT HE DOESN'T SHOW HIS EMOTIONS IN FRONT OF OTHERS . BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO BURDEN OFF OTHERS WITH HIS PROBLEMS OR HIS EMOTIONS . 

 HOW STYLE MAKNAE IS 

 MAKNAE FOCUSING TO HIS PHONE 

 VARIOUS POSE OF HIM FROM THE SPECIAL STAGE 

 I GUESS HIS BESTIE IS LAY .

LIKE ME AND WANI .

AWWW .

 MAKNAE LOOKIN SEXAY 

 THAT MOUTH OF HIM .

 #2 MOUTH 

HE LOVES TO DO THAT EXPRESSION 

 #3 MOUTH 

 HE STOP DOING THE MOUTH .

 #4 HE DOES IT AGAIN 

KYEOPTA SEHUN

#5 OK I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU OH SEHUN .

THEN COMES THIS OTHER PERSON WHO DEFINITELY STOLE MY HEART AT THE FIRST TIME I SAW HIM ON TV .
KIM WOO BIN .
HE HAS THAT UNIQUE FACE AND STYLE FOR ME .
I DON'T REALLY GIVE A DAMN WHEN PEOPLE SAID THAT HIS FACE IS WEIRD .
OR HIS EARS IS WEIRD .
FOR ME HE IS PERFECT .
NOT 100% PERFECT BUT PERFECT FOR ME .!
HIHIHIH
HE CAN BE A COLD PERSON FOR SOME TIME BUT HE IS ACTUALLY A SHY GUY . I SAW HIM DOING SOME AEGYO IN NG SCENE FROM THE HEIRS . AND HE IS SO CUTE. THERE ARE STILL MORE SIDE OF HIM THAT I DID NOT SEE .
AND HE HAS STILL MORE TO DO TO GAIN A LOT OF FAN .
I SEE HIM HAS A LOT OF OVERSEAS FANS LIKE LEE KWANG SOO .
I HOPE I CAN MEET HIM SOMEDAY .
I HOPE .
BUT BETWEEN HIM AND SEHUN , I REALLY LIKE TO SEE MORE ABOUT WOO BIN .
I REALLY WANTED HIM TO ENDED UP WITH CHA EUN SANG IN 'THE HEIRS' BUT I GUESS EUN SANG IS SO BLIND THAT HE COULDN'T SEE HOW NICE IS YOUNG DO BESIDE HE BULLYING OTHER KIDS IN THE SCHOOL .
LATER I WILL MAKE A REVIEW ON THE HEIRS AFTER I FINISH WATCHING THE DRAMA .
BUT HE DESERVE A BETTER GIRL THAN EUN SANG . I THOUGHT . THE DIRECTOR OF THE DRAMA SHOULD MAKE A TWIST IN THE STORYLINE SO THAT THE DRAMA IS EXCITING .
BUT I GUESS NOT .
KIM WOO BIN IS REALLY HARDWORKING GUY . 
HE HAS THAT QUALITY OF THE GUY BEST FRIEND THAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR .NAUGTHY ,BULLYING BUT ALWAYS BEING NICE AT ME .
HUH HOW IMPOSSIBLE DOES THAT SOUND FOR ME ??

OH I WISH I WAS THAT FLUFFY BEAR .!
HUH!

THAT LUCKY BEAR .!
GOSH !
LETS KILL THAT BEAR !
HAHAAH
NA MICHYEOSSEO !

CUTE .!

AEGYO SIDE OF HIM !
I WANT TO KEEP HIM IN MY POCKET .!

HOW CAN HE STILL BE HOT WHILE DRINKING THAT ???!

IT FEELS THAT HE IS STARING AT MY SOULS .
GOD BLESS HIM .

HMM THIS PICTURE CAN KILL THE FANGIRL .
BYE BYE  .
........................I LOVE YOU KIM WOO BIN.........................

SO THAT IS QUITE A STORY ABOUT MY TOP 2 .
I HOPE MY READERS ENJOYED WHAT I WROTE .
AND DO HAVE THE SAME FEELING .
BUT  MY TOP 1 IS STILL NAM WOOHYUN .
I WOULD NOT FORGOT ABOUT MY NAM NAM TREE .

SO THIS IS OTHER PICTURE FROM EXO MEMBERS THAT I LOVE .
ESPECIALLY SEHUN .!
HIS WINK ! 
VEGETABLE WINK ;)

HAHAAH TAO SLEEPY WINK .

SO FUNNY .

I STILL WONDERED WHAT IS A VEGETABLE WINK .??

EXPLAIN PLEASE EXOTICS .?

SO HERE I AM SAYING GOODBYE 

IF I HAVE TIME TO POST SOMETHING I WILL .

P/S I LOVE THESE GUYS .!
#NAM WOOHYUN
#OH SEHUN 
#KIM WOO BIN 

OK I'M GOING TO WHATSAPP MY BESTIE AND ASK HER TO READ THIS CRAPPY THINGS .!
GOODNIGHT
ANNYEONG
ASSALAMUALAIKUM 
LOVELIES !!~~~~~~

goodbye from sehun the flower boy !

A BOY'S BEST FRIEND

ASSALAMUALAIKUM .!

YEAY I'M NOW OFFICIALLY A HIGH SCHOOL LEAVER !

so now i have a lot of time to update my blog i guess.

and i can be a full time fan girl .

yeay .

i just watched a movie 

so it was a nice one 

i thought .

the story line is quite funny 

its about a friendship between a guy and a girl 

they were so sweet 

in the end they are in love together

hmmm

but i always wanted a guy best friend 

instead of girl best friend 

but i never got a chance to have one 

since i was in a girls high school my whole teenage life involve with girls all the time 

sometimes i hate that 

girls are complicated 

everyday we have drama

or conflict with each other 

i hate that!!

sometimes i think that hanging out with boys means that will be less drama .

but i often act awkward around boys ..

idk why 

maybe i am not used to be around boys 

arggghhh 

so how do i act in front of them?

be myself ?

i can be myself only around the people that is really close to me .

so i think i have a goal to achieve during my holiday .

that is to find a boy best friend .

i hope that i don't sound too desperate .

so we'll just see what happens in a few weeks ..